Dear Attacker,

I don't know your name but I do know how much you've taken from me.  That night you violated my body, it shattered my world.  I've been through a lot but I've never felt fear.  Now I feel fear constantly.  There is a feeling now that my body is not my own, but that every man out there is lurking, looking for a way to violate my security.  I have built a wall that I fear will never come down.  I am getting help now to deal with these feelings so I know that I will overcome them, but I don't know how to truly forgive you.  I understand that you probably have issues that are bigger than the ones I've carried around with me.  I cannot imagine what would prompt you to ignore me when I said no and to keep going with what you wanted.  I can't fathom the violence of what you did.  I am alive, I have a soul.  A strong one, but the moment you violated me, you broke something in my soul that trusted all people and looked for the good in strangers.  This is a trait I've always held dear.  I hope to get it back.  I wonder how many other people you've done this to.  I know that you planned your attack.  I can't wrap my mind around any of this right now.  But just know that you have damaged me and I'm searching for a way to get over it, forgive you and move on.